1. Comfort in Me

From the recording Cradle of Light

We ran into an old friend from when I was even less tolerable than now. She took genuine interest in us, seeming to forgive the past, and she pronounced this blessing: Sounds like you've made a happy life. We were dumbfounded. That thought had never occurred to us. I guess we would have described our trajectory as recurring cycles of failure, futility, and insignificance. It's amazing how a casual comment can change your perspective and give you a little courage.


Just before the morning you stepped into my dream
With welcome like it was your place all along
As if I’d just arrived there and you were biding time
All I know is you made me feel at home
I’m just a lovesick spaniel fetching frisbee in the park
It’s the only way you’ll get some space to breathe
You’re wondering how to train me and multitrack my thoughts
I’m living in your laugh I hide beneath
Then I woke and found that you had tunneled through the years
And left for me a message under glass
Swam across the currents; crowned the tadpole with your kiss
Graced us like a dewdrop glazing grass
Well, I had a chance to take you to the concert on the lawn
Oh, but I was stuck up in my head
Would have been my honor if I knew what honor was
It’s a concept that I’ve still not mastered yet
You forgave me
Mercy saved me
I ride the waves from those early days
with the breakers towering high above my size
Told us that it sounded like we’d made a happy life
Kicked the door to insight from the jamb
Your catalytic comments shocked the failure from our frame
I never said I’m sorry but I am
Decades in the distance tracing parallel paths ahead
Moldering like the basement of my mind
Unexpected warmth and debts forgiven unconfessed
Your vindicating voice came through so kind
I don’t think I mentioned—strange thing about this dream
Something you did caught me off my guard
The way that you disarmed me—laid your head against my neck
You drew comfort where there’s self-inflicted scars
You saw something in me that I could never see
Left to me an honor I can’t earn
I had nothing left to give, no advice on how to live
Taught me what I’d long refused to learn
You forgave me
Mercy saved me
I ride the waves from those early days
with the breakers towering high above my size